Analogy of realities ...?

Thinking about some of the different ways that we have to express love,
different ways of saying "I love you"... there are many ways:
we could just hold hands in public, we could send roses just because its thursday,
we could kiss because she's just beautiful with the combination of light and shadow in her face,

or we could just say it: "I just love you"...
But ... what if we want to say it and we cant?...
are there so many ways to hide it as there are to say it?...

thats when the thing gets a little complicated, hiding feelings is like living two different lives, everything changes when you see her, you turn into someone else ...

you want to say hi, but you're afraid, you want her to look at you

but its so hard to get her atention,
and then you decide to just sit and wait cause its impossible ... but wait for what? ...
for her to look so you can smile ... for her to go to you and say hi...

illusions that we create in order to make ourselves "happy"

with just thinking of the possibility of something desirable... her